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Tuesday, 01 July 2008

been a while....~

hmmmmm, where to even start....
A lot of changes have happened since I last posted.
* I moved closer to the beach and work--found an incredible and perfect place for me and my "boys" a.k.a. Harley and Hemmingway, a nice house that I've had fun with painting and gardening *yes, gardening*
* Ben got married to Rachel!!
*Have a newly married couple with a four year old from previous marriage for neighbors and we've become friends, Jennifer is 8 months pregnant and I'm the emergency person and also babysitter for when Zachery starts his arrival
*Sarah W. came to visit and help me with pre-op and also stayed thru my surgery...., Johnny sent me a box of dvds, and Lindsey sent me flowers...
* Had surgery on June 3rd, had a total hysterectomy and also had a lot of endometriosis removed as well....doctor said it was a very good thing I had the surgery....much needed and have been having a lot of relief.
* Had Mary Beth and Tricia Jones come visit and then went to their house in Pensacola for a week of R&R --rest and recovery. Had a wonderful time...and am feeling more rested.
* Today is my first day back after a thirty day medical leave (without pay, yikes!)
* I think that's about it...feeling a bit tired today but have had lots of people tell me I look much better and healthier blah blah blah

Tuesday, 19 February 2008

~*stronger woman*~

I guess you could say I'm one of those girls
That's always been with one of those guys
You know the type
Like right now, he sleeps while I write
But it's better than crying
I'm worn out from trying
From loving a man who always makes it clear
I'm not welcome here
Just till he's hungry or frisky
or needs something clean
You know what I mean

But not tonight
'Cause come the morning light, oh
I'm gonna love myself more than anyone else
Believe in me, even if someone can't see
The stronger woman in me

I'm going to be my own best friend
Stick with me till the end
Won't lose myself again, never, no,
'Cause there's a stronger woman,
A stronger woman in me

Light bulbs buzz,
I get up
And head to my drawer
I wish there was more
[ Lyrics found at
I could say
Another fairytale fades to gray
I've lived on hope
Just like a child
Walking that mile
Faking that smile
All the while
Wishing my heart had wings

Well tonight, I'm going to be
The kind of woman I'd want my daughter to be, oh

I'm gonna love myself more than anyone else
Believe in me, even if someone can't see
There's a stronger woman in me
I'm gonna be my own best friend
Stick with me till the end
I won't lose myself again, never, no
'Cause there's a stronger woman,
A stronger woman

This is me, packing up my bags
And this is me, headed for the door
And this is me, the best you ever had
I'm going to love myself
More than anyone else
Believe in me even if someone cannot see
There's a stronger woman in me
I'm going to be my own best friend
Stay with me till the end
Won't lose myself again, never, no
'Cause there's a stronger woman
A stronger woman
There's a stronger woman,
A stronger woman in me,

Tuesday, 15 January 2008

The Broken clock is a comfort
It helps me sleep tonight
Maybe it can stop tomorrow
From stealing all my time
And I am here still waiting
Though I still have my doubts
I am damaged at best
Like you've already figured out

I'm falling apart
I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart
That's still beating
In the pain
There is healing
In your name
I find meaning
So I'm holding on (I'm holdin on)(I'm holdin on)
I'm barely holding on to you

The broken locks were a warning
You got inside my head
I tried my best to be guarded
I'm an open book instead
And I still see your reflection
Inside of my eyes
That are looking for purpose
They're still looking for life

I'm falling apart
I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart
That's still beating
In the pain (In the pain)
Is there healing
In your name
I find meaning
So I'm holding on (I'm still holdin on)(I'm holdin on)
(I'm still holdin on) (I'm holdin on)
I'm barely holding on to you

I'm hanging on another day
Just to see what, you will throw my way
And I'm hanging on, to the words you say
You said that I will, will be okay
The broken light on the freeway
Left me here alone
I may have lost my way now
But I haven't forgotten my way home

I'm falling apart
I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart
That's still beating
In the pain (In the pain)
There is healing
In your name (In your name)
I find meaning
So I'm holding on (I'm still holdin')(I'm holdin' on)(I'm still holdin') (I'm holdin' on) (I'm still holdin')
Barely holding on to you (I'm still holdin on)
Barely holdin on to you

Wednesday, 09 January 2008

Marks and Auntie....family resemblance??
Mark loves to scrunch up his nose and squint his eyes when he smiles/laughs at people....he knows it gets a good response and that people laugh at him, so it encourages him to do it and he does it even more.....sarah snapped this picture earlier today......he was clowning around and and she managed to get him right when he was doing his "funny face"
Sarah and Moi
Sarah snapped this picture as well, the lovely background is at the local Publix on the beach. ;) Sarah was able to come up and spend Sunday and part of today at my place. It was an *awesome* visit, good times....good times.
Oh, and yes, I did dye my hair again....just a tad darker, the box said "soft black" what do ya'll think??
My parents had a mini birthday party for me on Sunday. Yes, I did have a birthday and I am now offically OLD.
Birthday Celebration.....decorations courtesy of my lovely parents.
My Mom and me
Bob Hicks, My mom, Me, Trisha Hicks (notice the knife in my hand???)

Saturday, 05 January 2008

In loving memory, of Sheba

1986-2008
RAINBOW BRIDGE

Just this side of heaven is a place called Rainbow Bridge. When an animal dies that has been especially close to someone here, that pet goes to Rainbow Bridge. There are meadows and hills for all of our special friends so they can run and play together. There is plenty of food and water and sunshine, and our friends are warm and comfortable. All the animals who have been ill and old are restored to health and vigour, those who were hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again, just as we remember them in our dreams of days and times gone by.
The animals are happy and content, except for one small thing: they miss someone very special to them who had to be left behind. They all run and play together, but the day comes when one suddenly stops and looks into the distance.
The bright eyes are intent; the eager body quivers. Suddenly it begins to break away from the group, flying over the green grass, strong legs carrying him faster and faster. YOU have been spotted, and when you and your special friend finally meet, you cling together in joyous reunion, never to be parted again. The happy kisses rain upon your face, your hands caress the beloved head and you look once more into the trusting eyes of your pet, so long gone from your life but never absent from your heart. Then you cross the Rainbow Bridge together.